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[Apr. 4th, 2008|12:50 am] |
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| | Orchestra Baobab - Balla Daffe | ] |
So I have the cold, a bad head cold. Then I was thinking about taking medicine before bed tonight, maybe Nyquil, but that made be begin to think that I got sick last year around this same time, then that made me think about what I was doing last year at this exact time. I was dating this girl who would forever change my life, and change the way I saw things forever.
It's great to have good friends, I live for that. The unity, the brotherhood, etc... But sometimes, its even better to have a chic. I met this girl last year and started dating her, and I don't know what happened, but suddenly, I was this guy who had ridiculous amounts of energy, I loved life, and things were going good for once in my life. It could have been the spring, but I think going out with this chic had a lot to do with it.
It was almost as if I had gotten a glimpse of one of my purposes in life. I was so naturally high, nothing negative phased me, so it seemed. It was an extremely amazing experience for me, falling in love I guess. I was never whipped, we kept our distance when we needed to, unlike some people I know.
When we were going out:
Music sounded better! The sun was more beautiful! The days just seemed to be amazing! Not to mention late at night!
But breaking up made me never want to "fall in love" ever again.
So I guess why I'm writing this may be because
I'm wired on concerta, trying to study and it's not working, but really, I guess it's because I want what I had last year, and I expect similar things to happen, and they're not. I expect that great spring that I had, I expect to get so high while not even being on anything. I expect nothing to get old, nothing to get tiring, and everything to be the fucking shit!
But I can't.
Because the point is, when certain things like that happen, that are so amazing, you want it to happen again!
But the truth, the point, the bottom line definitely is:
We Are In Charge of Our Own Destiny
And everything you and I do this spring and last few weeks of school and forever really, will determine how amazing and great we can really make our lives.
It's up to you... |
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[Mar. 8th, 2008|05:09 am] |
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| | Gondwana | ] |
Well Well Well, James Marcus and I had a Revelation tonight. We talked about how important art and expression are to humanity. We concluded that our best years when we were most "free" were in high school. Although this sounds corny and ridiculous, thinking back to it, that was the time when I was most creative. We made short films once a week, we listened to reggae any chance we got, and we loved life!
James and I talked for 4 hours tonight (while smoking multiple bowls of hookah tobacco) about how art and personal expression plays an important role in life. That art, (in it's many forms) promotes a "freedom state of mind."
I can remember when we were making films hardcore, all the time in high school. We might have worked, and lived regular lives, but we lived for filming! Nothing else mattered, and James and I agreed that we were so high on life at that time.
It all had to do with art, and in our case, it was filming.
I'm making a comeback into creativity.
Because really, I want my life back.
I am still dreaming
I want to wake up, but can't
I can hear them calling
but I am still dreaming |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2007|01:53 am] |
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| | Grateful Dead - Uncle John's Bend | ] |
ANSWER ME THIS:
IS LIVEJOURNAL DEAD? HAS MYSPACE TAKEN IT OVER? NOBODY POSTS ANYTHING ANYMORE!
I hope not, myspace isn't that good.
COME ON PEOPLE, LET ME KNOW YOU'RE ALIVE! |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|01:29 pm] |
oh man, what a crazy night, like usual I drank too much, ha ha ha, but not as much as these other kids that were there.
I've been working at Costco, and I'm happy to say that I only have a month left of this crap. I was supposed to meet Rachel Kayak yesterday to go over designs for Groove Threads, aka my new clothing line, but she never showed up.
Like always, I'm sick of working, (38 hrs a week) blah
I think I'm going to take a trip to the city soon.
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[Jun. 13th, 2006|02:19 am] |
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| | Moby - Porcelain | ] |
-GOODBYE HELLISH LANDSCAPING JOB,
HELLO COSTCO!
-GOODBYE OLD STYLE, SLAPSTICK SHORT FILMS
HELLO SWEET NEW STYLE!
-GOODBYE STUPID HOOKER
HELLO YOUR MOM! (JUST KIDDING I DON'T LIKE HOOKERS)
-GOODBYE BEING UNDERAGE
HELLO 21 THURSDAY!
-GOODBYE DEPRESSED LIFE LAST WEEK
HELLO ECSTATIC SUMMER! |
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[May. 9th, 2006|03:06 am] |
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| | Sweet Fanta Diablo - Alpha Blondie | ] |
so exciting! finally got some material on myspace, most of it is old school slapstick stuff, but its still funny so check it out...
www.myspace.com/bagleyfilms
I hope to put some material of..."higher caliber" on there soon. I want to produce some real Indie film making. I am working on this idea that I've had for awhile involving a suburban drug ring. I'm kinda sick of people watching my short films and nothing happening. Just a quick laugh and that's it.
Oh yea, and I need a job, haha |
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[Apr. 19th, 2006|01:14 pm] |
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| | Manu Chao | ] |
ya know, she was right, "Central Michigan University really sucks the creativity out of you." I haven't made a single film up here! Maybe it's my fault, but I really don't feel a sense of creativity or culture on campus ever. The one thing that is missing in my life is the thing that I love most...art/creativity/culture. That is...film/photography/fashion/music. When was the last time I actually went out and saw an Indie movie? Too long, too long. When was the last time I had a drum jam? too long. When was the last time I made a short film? december, and that was at home. Too many people that go here aren't different enough. It seems like high school all over again BUT WORSE. transferring in 2007 might not seem like a bad idea after all.
This loss of culture and creativity sucks and I'm sick of it. |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2006|04:57 am] |
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| | Ozomatli | ] |
Yea, hey, its almost 5am now, and I'm working on a 10 page paper, nothin too bad. haha, goin home this weekend for a short while, got to catch up, haven't been back since x mas break. Finally gettin back into shape, I ran a 6 mile the other day, it felt good. I wore shorts to class today, it was very nice outside. Even though I had only gotten 4 hours sleep last nite, the great weather raised my mental highness up like crazy! I don't think I've felt this good since the summer!
Yea, so I'm workin on a movie script right now...only problem is who the hell is going to memorize it? haha, just me probably, I'm very proud of it so far, its got a certain lingo to it that I like. I want the clothes in the movie to be really abstract. Lots of colors, its going to be one crazy movie. I'm going to call it "Suburban....something" At first it was "Suburban Mafia" but its really not about a mafia, its about kids right out of high school who get into the narcotics business. Suburban something...but if it happens, and I do it right, this movie will be one of the all time best. I've been planning it since late 04. Now, I just need some decent actors....anybody?
-Ryan |
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[Feb. 20th, 2006|02:12 am] |
yea, its been awhile since I last updated, but it always is. I've been busy with fraternity stuff, school, films, its been really crazy. I haven't been home since winter break, which is pretty crazy, I'll go home for spring break in 2 weeks, and that will set an all-time record, haha. But yea, school's been busy, Delta Chi's been keepin me busy, and I'm just about to start story boarding for my newest film, which doesn't have a title yet. But I'm almost done with my website, and...should be on track with Bagley Films soon. Anyway, good to be back to "Live Journal." I'd like to talk film with other people on here....
-Ryan |
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[Nov. 11th, 2005|10:30 am] |
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| | Doors - Back Door Man | ] |
Its been awhile, and I'm writing in this because although I'm at one of the busiest times of my life, I am trying to get back to the old ways of living.
Meaning, this year, being so busy and stressed out...I remember when there was a time when I could just relax and live my life, instead of worrying and being paranoid about stuff.
What triggered this thought, was the song "Backdoor Man" by the Doors that I heard on the radio. It made me think of senior year of high school...back then, I didn't have a worry at all, it was one of the recent times when I was most satisfied with life. I was working on films with my friends, I had a job, I had money, and it seemed like we were all just excited about life. Like we were all just thrilled to be living. We had a name for our group of friends, the "Bagley Boys." Funny as it may sound, we were actually a close group of friends, and it was a great time.
But now, much of that is fading...although we still see each other, it isn't often, times are different, I have to worry about classes, what the hell I'm majoring in, if these classes I'm taking are a waste, if college is a waste,
I just don't think I've ever been so stressed out in my life. I don't know what's wrong...life just isn't fun anymore, like it used to be. I want to be carefree again. I guess you don't realize how good life is at times when its gone.
I WANT MY LIFE BACK
-RYAN D. |
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[Aug. 7th, 2005|03:35 am] |
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| | Duran Duran | ] |
yea, it was a good night, I really wanted to have a good weekend since I worked so much over the week. I chilled with Chris and we had a good convo, its been awhile since we talked a lot. Tonite we went to this party and I met all these sweet people. Josh Druilard was there, haha, then we went to Brenden's house where he had a party, it was fun. It was nice to see all everybody from high school. I hung out with Charlie Peterson, Jesse Mclean, Mike Frost, and Marcos! haha, it was good.
yea,
lata,
oh yea Im listening to Duran Duran. haha |
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[Jun. 11th, 2005|03:06 am] |
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| | Mars Volta | ] |
tonite was a good night, had a good smoke or two, listened to Mars Volta, and had a "good chill" with Jim, Miles, and Chris, yea! |
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[Mar. 29th, 2005|01:18 am] |
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| | Groovin | ] |
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| | Kool and the Gang - Hollywood Swingin | ] |
Yea, so I am playing Grand Theft Auto San Andreas, and I start to do the club dance mission where you have to press buttons in time with the music beat to do the mission. And the most sweetest funk song of my life played. Took me like about a half hour to find the name on the internet. My referance sadly was that it was the sample back up music to Mase and Puff Daddy's "Feel So Good" song. But I found the name and man is it the most sweetest funk song I ever heard. its Kool and the Gang - "Hollywood Swingin"
oh yea, school ends in less than a month. "A MONTH!" Can you believe that shit!? Cuz I sure can't! Who wants to have an out of college party? where everybody sweet is invited?! ME! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2005|02:08 pm] |
ok, I just got 300 bucks back becuase my CAMERA BROKE! So I want to buy a new digi cam, but I don't know which one to buy! Does anybody know anything about Digital Cameras???
-Ryan |
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[Mar. 26th, 2005|12:14 pm] |
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| | Grupo Mania - Como Baila Mi Morena | ] |
hell once again, I am updating my live journal among the sounds of weed wacker sounding motorized scooters called "Go-Peds" that speed past my house in my subdivision. When I was around 14, we all had go-peds and they were a great way to get around without having a license, but now I can see why some people found them annoying.
Yes, its been a long week of heavy studying, drama, and tension this week at Central. But it's the weekend here in Lake Orion. I am relieved and well rested after falling asleep at 9pm, from a voracious dinner at Joe's Crab Shack with the parents last night.
Recently I have been much into reading this huge 800 page book on the Latin Revolutionary Ernesto "Che" Guevara.
Its been an interest of mine for awhile. But until recently, reading has never been a hobby of mine. But as I've been reading this intimidating 800 page book through the week, I've already noticed that my vocabulary has gotten much better, and when I read, its like an adventure movie in my mind.
And easter, whoa easter. In the past 5 years, having thought a lot about religion, I have gone from a recently baptized Catholic, to an agnostic. For those of you who don't know what an agnostic is, its basically a person who is skeptical about the existance of god but isn't an atheist.
I think my departure from Christianity has had to do with the fact that how does one prove that all those stories in the bible are true, Faith you say? No offense to anyone, but to me, faith is christianity's tool to keep its existance. I mean think about it, how can you prove that anything in the bible is true? You can't. You rely only on the notion of "faith."
And another thing, christianity is basically a good thing. Religion is basically a good thing. However, many wars, killings, and violence has happened due to religion. Religion is the cause for the 9/11 attacks and many more religious wars that have happened in our history.
So when I go to church tomorrow for easter, Im going to make my mom happy.
oh well, time spent with my parents is valueable now because Im never home. And why am I talking about religion? One of the worst things besides politics to talk about? Am I crazy? haha, probably....
Speakin of easter, its the anniversary of my high school spring break with the boyz in the Keys. What a trip that was, wow. I want to go back and do it all over again! I will drink many coronas tonight "To Key West and the great times we had! viva las llaves!"
talk to ya all later,
-Ryan |
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[Mar. 14th, 2005|12:31 am] |
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| | My Morning Jacket - "I Will Sing You Songs" | ] |
yea, we need to start makin films, pronto, Im sick of all this half ass shit. I want to make some short movies like we used to. Start gettin creative, I came home to good old Lake Orion for spring break. And it kinda changed me a bit. I saw so many of my old friends, and missed the good times I used to have, going to college has been so different for me. I guess I kinda forgot about how much cool people that are still in LO. And that I want things to be the way they used to be, but its not Highschool anymore, its college, and its different. I mean, we made so many movies that we came up with a name for ourselves, "The Bagley Boys" after the shitty street in Detroit. haha, but I definately want to start filming again, it doesn't even have to be in LO, anywhere! its just so liberating to make a good film.
IM gonna do it....we're gonna do it |
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[Mar. 13th, 2005|11:11 pm] |
YEA
YEA
YEA
YEA
YEA
YEA! |
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[Mar. 4th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
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| | Steve Miller Band - "Keep On Rockin Me Baby" | ] |
Yea, I was so sick of Central. Jeeze...what a bad week for me. I was so close to gettin another alcohol violation last night long story.... "we can laugh about it now, cuz we're ok!" haha
Yea, long bad week, I am so happy to be home, I feel so much better! We're all gonna jam tommorrow, its gonna be fun, play some bluesy rock songs, and of course, some reggae.
I never knew that Ben Affleck and Matt Damon both wrote the movie "Good Will Hunting!" Jim and I are going to start our script for our movie. One day, we'll win academy awards too!
Goin to the Jiu Jitsu Gym tomorrow! Gonna get my ass kicked! Im excited.
LAta.... |
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[Feb. 27th, 2005|08:19 pm] |
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Yea, Im at the library tryin to study like whoa. Its goin pretty good, Im takin a break updatin the livejournal. Have an exam in entrepreneurship class wednesday. This weekend was ok, I chilled with some friends and drank some gin and tonics! It was fun, saturday I went with Ashlee (hot) to her ZTA semi formal, it was fun.
Ya know what IM sick of seeing and hearing? Im sick of hearing white people talk ghetto seriously! God is that annoying. I mean, I'll do it to be funny, ya know like "shit dogg, don't be hatin" lol, but never seriously, just like how I pop the collar, thats always to be funny!
And, Im sick of Rap music! I thought I'd never say that, cuz I like it sometimes, usually when I go out, but if it weren't for my two room mates playin it all day long, then I don't think I'd be so sick of it!
Anyway, I gotta go study more,
LAter... |
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